Thoughts on religion

I have heard of so many people making fun of people who believe in religion. Some of them are comedians, some are random people from Facebook and some are people who are/were important to me.

I am not religious. I just believe that there is a higher being out there and it can be anyone. No religion is better than the other. We are under one home and we only have one Father and/or Mother, whoever they may be. They are just there, watching over us.

Despite hearing so many things about God and Religion; and despite my own rational questionings, I still prefer to stick to the idea of having a God. Not because I was ‘brainwashed’ and that I grew up with it but also I have my own very intimate relationship with both God and religion. I am sticking to the idea. Here are some of my idiosyncratic reasons:

Knowing that there is a higher being out there taught me humility. It reminds me of my humanness and that I am so small. Not only by kneeling down and praying all the time, the idea of humility can transcribe in other forms in the course of our human existence. Like, sometimes I wish I’d feel good to act as if I am so awesome. Having humility reminds me that, NO, I am not because there is still so many things to learn and experience in this world. If one already thinks he/she is perfect, there will be no more room for improvement and learning. Religion taught me humility, that I will never be perfect and it’s ok because I am just HUMAN.

Part of humility and accepting humanness is Forgiveness. Because I know I am imperfect, I learned how to forgive others’ shortcomings as well. Nobody is perfect. I’ve learned how to embrace and love people as a whole regardless of their own sorts of humanness.

Having a religion taught me to trust. Trust that there is is always something better coming up. I know that I will never be alone. Inside my delicate humanness, there is a rock. A rock that adversities cannot crush. It is called trust.

Having a religion taught me that I belong.I have family anywhere in the world. I travel a lot and I’ve always felt welcomed. I know that anywhere in the world, I will have a family, an inclusive one. A family that will welcome even my friends who are not of the same faith or even those who hates it. We all are welcome!

We all have our own beliefs and I am not forcing anyone to come with me, but, I will try to be humble, I will try to forgive, to trust and to welcome everyone into my life. I will try to love and through my so-called love, people will feel…people will know….that it is ok to believe in God.

11 Feb 2018

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Patong Beach, Phuket Thailand

 

Trails of heartaches and disappointments, sunsets.
Pavements of success and luck, sunrises. 
Passing through them again,
Walking through them, viewing them back through your eyes,
I will never mind. 

Aligned

She came into my life as if she was already there
A lifetime of emptiness filled with a stare
A sweetness only seen in the richest of hunny
A nature of beauty worth much more than money
A touch, a kiss, forever lasting bliss
A smile, oh that smile, it could melt you in a instant
The closer she gets, it starts to feel distant
Her movement, her grace, her love, her passion
Excitement is rising, a child inside
Keep her still for too long it’s like she has died
Complex yet simple, confusion like rain
Coming in from all angles, fast, heavy, I wipe it from my face
Just get me an umbrella
It’s just rain
It will pass
Then sun. Glorious sun

– A poem by TB given to me. 🙂

Scars (Hide none)

When every scar is a story to tell.
When every blotch is a tattoo of strength.
Artistically embedded by circumstances.
Unique symbols of bravery and power.
Irreversible arrangements by nature.
Immense stamp of formidability.
Openly inviting exploration.
Accepted with pure honesty and kindness.
World’s work of art.
Subjectively explained.
Objectively felt.
Lovingly embraced.

25 June 2017

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Hari Raya Celebration at Eco Sanctuary Sunset  , Singapore

In between these two worlds. Society and you.
Tag of war; one side is winning. It should.
In between this so-called day and night.
They’re just part of continued hours.
My choice, though unfree.
The creature I have become.
The self I am bound to be.
Me, my sunsets, my life.
You!
Part of me.
You!

Over

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Stuck and Game OVER for this cow,  Interlaken, Switzerland June 2017

Vindicating your disregard with novelty.
New life, new work, new people.
The hopes I have,
Everything will be coming back to how it was before,
After all these have subsided.
Future that seems to never come.

Vindicating your disregard with adjustments.
Filling my mind with hopes.
Uncorrected, unintended, unforeseen.
Temporary this will be, I told myself.
Mistake.
It’s been forever.

Vindicating your disregard with suprises.
Your nailed lips never even whispered,
Surprises you never even imagined.
Hoping for your presence to arrive,
You never have, never will be!

Vindicating your disregard with my love.
Finding comfort on what was and not is.
Satiating the days between our exchanges.
But reality remains….

The bloody red curtain has dropped.
The show is over!

For now

I dived into the wilderness,
Under the earth’s deepest trench.
Swimming endlessly.
Meeting creatures, after creature.
They all want my flesh.
I am getting tired.
My lungs are almost empty.
I am drowning peacefully,
I accepted.
I am almost dying.

I closed my eyes and said my last prayer.
In my final moments,
I want to visualise love.
As I open my eyes again,
A bright creature appeared.
Unknown to me, it smiled to my face.
Hope came to grace.

This creature’s life reverberates
To the core of my being.
Like an invisible CPR.
Without touching me,
It feels like it’s bringing me to life.
I do not know how or why.

Those flesh-eating monsters just observed.
They let us stride smoothly without interrupting.
They didn’t attempt to attack.
I could see their wild tendencies,
But they all just look frozen.
Or maybe, they aren’t.
I’m just not afraid anymore.
For I am behind this unknown brightness.

I am blinded by the light this creature elicits.
It saved me under water.
I am worried.
When it’s brightness wears off,
Will it have the same killer fangs?
Will it squirt poison too?
Will it kill me too?
Or will it just continue to take me away?
From this trench of mosters I am in?

For now, Iam just grateful for it’s existence.
I survived for a bit more!
I survived for now.

23 April 2017

The more of them I meet,
The more I lose grip on who you are.
Will you ever exist?
Have you already existed?
They all look like you from a far,but,
No one can steal Me away, the way you do.
Man of my dreams and life,
I have yet to meet,
AGAIN?